General Chitter Chatter

Indeed, those are both very good things Freya xxxxxxx

Evening xx

Hello my lovely, still on cloud nine? xxxx

Definately. I'm not even sure my brain can function anymore.
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Haha, bless you! I know exactly what you mean, feels amazing doesn't it? xxxx

It's the best thing in the world. All day I've been feeling like my chest is literally going to burst. It's a physical ache, but in the best possible way. And I've been smiling and on the verge of tears but I'm so happy and I don't understand but I don't care coz everything's wonderful <3 xx

Awww, bless you! I know exact;y what you mean, don't worry about trying to understand it, just live it! xxxxx

I am. I don't want to understand it. This is amazing <3
Can I tell you what happened? There's alot of fluff! haha xx

Yep just go with it!

And of course you can tell me xxxx

Well we went to ALDI to get some snacks with my dad and we were bumping into each other and teasing each other in the isles, which was fun and cute <3
About 2 hours into Eurovision we started holding hands, kinda loosly. Just contact, you know.
We went to bed about 1am and were talking with the light on until about 2:40am. I turned the light off and we were both lying on our stomachs facing each other with our hands in the middle of the bed. I started playing with her hand.

At this point I was asking her if she minded me holding her hand. She said she didn't And we started talking about us, and what's happening. We got to the bottom of why we're not together: her parents are homophobic and she's scared to death of what would happen if she got with me. And then, bless her actual heart, she started crying, really quietly and it was dark so I couldn't see but I could hear it in her voice when she was talking and she was shaking slightly. Then she apologised for hurting me and put her forehead on the pillow. I think she was trying to stop herself crying. Me, being me, asked her if a hug would help. Her exact words: "It wouldn't not help." She shifted over and I hugged her, but we stayed like that. Her heart was beating seriously fast, I could feel it, and she started playing with my hand She fell asleep with her head on my chest and my arms round her. I couldn't sleep, I just listened to her breath. This was about 4am and then at about 6:20, she rolled over so she was back on her side of the bed, but she was still holding my hand Then I went to sleep, woke up about 9 and we were still holding hands <3

Watched TV for hours this morning, curled up on the sofa and then we took the dog for a walk to the park this afternoon. Totally held hands as soon as we got to the park and then all the way home <3

I drove her home, she hugged me in the car before she got out and there was this kinda...intimate moment. It was just like an eye-lock...I can't explain it. And then I nearly crashed driving home


Sorry for the essay! Lots happened! <3 xx

Wow, give me some reading time! lol xxxx

cute cute CUTE. Bless you both! That is all so adorable! She sounds lovely

Do you know what she's going to do about her parents though?

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She is lovely. I can't even. I even talked to my mum about her, and my mum was like yeah she's really nice, really polite, kind of shy but she's really sweet. I was like hell yeah

And no, I have no clue what she's gonna do. She's terrified of what her parents would say, but she said that she couldn't keep a relationship with me a secret coz she wouldn't be able to keep it from her parents. xx

Haha, aww, so her mum likes you?

Screw her parents! She's 18 for christ's sakes, they can't stop her from seeing you and you're off to uni in a few months, it's not like they'll have much controll over her soon!

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Um, her mum doesn't really know me. I've only met her once. My mum likes her though

Actually she's still 17, but I get your point. I said that to her. I asked how long she thinks she'd be able to keep it from her parents and she said not very long at all.
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That's good What about the rest of your family?

Oh she'll be 18 soon enough? Like I said, uni soon for you both, you can do what you like then!

My mum doesn't like Mr T and that never stopped us! lol
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Yeah they all like her and she gets on really well with them All of them

Yeah, July Exactly, except 40 miles apart as opposed to seeing each other everyday and living 8 miles apart. Oh well <3

Haha good for you guys Seriously <3 xx

That's very good!

Meh, 40 miles is nothing! You'll be fine, if it's meant to be then it will last, trust me, it's hard at first but it does get better

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I know, it'll be fine. We're damn perfect together, there's no legitimate reason why we shouldn't work.
Ugh it's so bad, I don't want to sleep in my bed tonight, coz I fell asleep and woke up with her last night and it was perfect. Tonight's just gonna be lonely I feel, especially as my pillow and pjs still smell like her *le sigh* xx

Yes you will be

Awww, hug the pillow instead xxxx

I think I may have to. Oh what has my life become? haha
Also, I forgot to point out that when we held hands in the park, it was the first time she'd taken my hand, not the other way around. Ugh she must have been deaf not to hear my heart beating! Or I must be very lucky not to be in a coma from the speed it was beating! haha xxx

Haha, don't worry, it's not too sad! lol

Bless you So pleased for you my lovely xxxxx

One day I will come on here to talk about something other than my relationships... haha xx

Evening all! x

Haha! Roz, if you do that we'll have nothing to talk about xxx