General Chitter Chatter

I don't even know what I want to do.
I really like him and when we were together I was so happy - but when he wasn't here I missed him. And (major forward thinking) I couldn't cope with him being in so much danger all the time once he finished his training "/
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I would work out what you want to do before you talk to him.

Right ok, you need to balance up the happiness with the missing/worrying. Also think about where you'll be with your college work next year and (I hate to say this) if he does leave you again, how easy it will be to cope with.
(sorry to sound really negative, I just want you to think it through properly )

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Negative is what I need because I'm such an idiot I don't look for it.
Summer. How about I tell him I can't think about a relationship until I finish college for summer. Then I can already see what the college stress is like?
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Ok, well I will give you as much negative as you like in that case!

Hold up, next summer??

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This summer...I have to go back on Monday for a month!
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Right ok....

The only warning I would give you with that is until you start it properly A2 seems easy, but if you do want to get back with him then I guess that would be one way to do it xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

We go back and have to do a shit load of English work...so I guess we kinda do start? Yeah, I could tell him I defiantly want to, like, talk to him more? But I need to think about it more and I'll make a decision in summer? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Ok, see how that goes and how you feel after that That sounds like a good thing to say to him for now xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Does it really? Or are you just saying that? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I'm not just saying it, I think it's a sensible way to deal with it if you want to get back with him.

Personally I wouldn't want to start the relationship again, but giving that you would like to, you're doing it well

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The more I think about it, I think I just think I want to. ARRRRGGHHHH. I've been telling myself more and more reasons why it was a good thing he split up with me. Now I'm just forgetting them all. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

So it's more the idea than the actual reality that you like?

Just remember how he's treated you before and be prepared that is could happen again.

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He said he wasn't "in the right circumstance for a relationship" last time and that he thought he loved me but maybe he didn't. His situation hasn't changed. And what the hell about the second part?! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Once again, sounding very very twatish there....

Love, I really would be cautious about getting back into a relationship with him.

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Yeah. I do miss him though. This is shitty. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I know it is my love, relationships aren't easy though.

Could you suggest being friends again for a period of time, see how it goes and then maybe consider a relationship?

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Relationships suck. Why can't it be like on the tv?! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Because the tv isn't realistic my love!

If it's really causing you this much heartache trying to decide do you really think he's worth it?

Do you miss him or the idea of him?

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Uhm. Wow. That's it. I miss the idea of him. Not him. He smokes, he hurt me, didn't talk to me for months.
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Then get rid of him my love. He's no good and you can do and deserve so much better.

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Woah. Thank you so much <3
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No probs my love, glad I could help xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

My head is all clear and stuff. <3
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That's great my love

You got planned what you're going to say to him?

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Nope. No idea. Urgh. Imma think about it later - imma go watch a film with Mama Thank you so much Smush <3
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